What was I supposed to be talking about? Oh right, prom. That. Well... do you want the good news first, or the bad news? The good news? Well, that sucks. I'm writing and I say bad news.
UP can't go to prom. Well, he maybe could, but he isn't gonna find out until April 20th, and my prom is May 5th. I don't want to leave it until two weeks beforehand to know for certain if I'll have a date. This is utterly disappointing, and I was quite upset about it at first. Actually... I still am. Not only upset, but FREAKING OUT. Because I now have five weeks and six days to find a date. Not that I'm, uh, counting or anything. But yeah... I am freaking out, because I don't talk to that many guys. Or rather... I don't talk to the ones I do talk to enough to make it not-awkward for me to ask them to prom. Le sigh.
And to those who say "Just go with a group of friends!" I respond quite depressingly: I have all of two friends at my high school, they both have boyfriends, and they aren't friends with each other so much. Now, I do have a lot of friends at a neighboring town's high school, but they are all girls. Now, not that I think there's anything wrong with taking a girl... I don't want to. Actually, I absolutely refuse to. Isn't gonna happen. I took Tee to the "winter formal," but that really wasn't much fun. It wasn't her fault, I probably wouldn't have had fun anyways. I almost never (by which I mean, have not up to this point) have fun at dances. But I feel like, for prom, having a date of the male variety would make it a lot more fun, even if it's totally clear that we are going as friends.
I feel like I have so few options right now. I haven't talked to Farmboy in ages. Sophomore is much less likable when he's stressed out/you spend more time with him. UP probably can't go. I talk to Jetta so infrequently that I haven't ever mentioned him here until now. Astronomy guy is 27, and Dragon is 22. Both too old.
That's my whole list, and it's crazy depressing in its shortness, and in its none-of-them-are-reasonable-ness. I'm seriously freaking out about this, probably more than I should. This is stressing me out so much. So, so much.
Let's move on. My mom ordered my dress the other day, so here is my final decision:
Modcloth's website is an idiot for not letting me save a decent-size picture.
It meets most/some/meh of my requirements. It's flowy and cute and I'll wear it more than once. It is not organic, environmentally-friendly, or non-strapless. However, it was only $90. Accessory money!
Which I will need, because this
is fifty dollars. And I must have it! There's also a ring that sorta-ish matches it, but its on modcloth and we've already discussed the stupidity of that website.
And now a hair picture, and then I will go to bed because shit is pissing me off and now I'm depressed because of my datelessness, even more than I was before I decided to completely spell it out for myself, and the internet.
So here. Hair.
Oh and also maybe these paper corner-of-your-eye fake lashes. Haven't decided for sure. Let's just worry about the other stuff for the moment.
They match cause of the whole octopus thing. My prom theme is definitely Fucking Stupid Masquerade, though. Not I'm An Idiot Underwater, which would actually suck worse.
I'm gonna go now.
--Razza Ragazza
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